Winter wonderland

We woke up this morning to a thin layer of snow on the ground. My first reaction was 'blah'. But as I made breakfast and continued to study the snow, I realized that I have a deep association to snow and Connor being a little baby. I felt a warm, fuzzy feeling stirring up in my belly as memories flooded my thoughts. I was brought back to the days of late nights and early mornings, breastfeeding and cuddling on the couch, bassinets in my kitchen and lots of coffee drinking. Though it seemed like a some what difficult time back then, I find myself missing those days...and my little baby.

This is the view from our living room window. I sat in this room every morning, looking out the window and pumping while Connor had his nap.

If Buddy and Jessie could be here now (they are sleeping downstairs right now - thank god!). It's kind of fitting that this squirrel showed up for my picture taking. This is the squirrel that taunts B and J every morning. They go berserk, barking and crying and yelping for the chance to chase that squirrel. The barking isn't so bad now since Connor can sleep through pretty well everything. But back when he was a baby - this squirrel was my nemesis. It would show up nearly every, morning - the dogs would freak out - and Connor would wake up...one memory I do not miss! DAM YOU SQUIRREL! DAM YOU! Anyways, this is the view from the patio doors. I would sit here and drink my coffee, looking out this window at the snow while Connor would nap in his bassinet right beside me. I remember checking him every few minutes to make sure he was still breathing.

Although I do miss Connor's first days on earth, I absolutely love the stage he is at right now. He is our little sponge...learning so much right in front of our eyes. I love watching him learn to walk - up and down, up and down never giving up. I love listening to his efforts at talking, babbling in his own little language - saying so much and nothing at all. I love his silly, contagious laugh. I love everything about him. I cherish these moments with him for I know they won't last forever - although I wish they would...